Oh No!

The problem with opening your heart is that your heart is open! We have had a week of extreme highs and lows. The lows I have covered in previous blogs. We lost our dog Harley in the most traumatic of circumstances. The highs....let me count them. Austin has been here for 9 days! It has gone so well. The beauty of having 4 children already is that when you add one more you hardly notice the downside. What's a couple more piles of dirty clothes or glasses of water that were discarded? What we do get is one more personality into the crazy routine of our life! I will admit...but only here...that I'm feeling attached. I know we are in the "honeymoon" phase. He may still be on his best behavior. I'm not a spring chicken. But despite the fact that eventually we will have to discipline and train I think he is worth it. More importantly, I believe God brought him here exactly for that purpose. I'm certain that when I drop him off tomorrow into somebody else's care I'll shed a few tears. I'll keep them to myself. I'll look forward to our next visit and I will trust God in the details. I'll leave my "I want to be the Mom" t-shirt at home! I'm so grateful that this week of high highs and low lows coincided with the celebration of my Savior's death and resurrection. How can I lose perspective during a week like this? God is sovereign over all the details of life. He was then and He continues to be. I trust Him with the events that occur in my home. I trust Him as I return Austin to his home.